Ok, I feel like I lied to you all. In my last post I told you that I had gained a little bit over the holidays and that it didn’t really bother me like it had before. Well, a week later I stepped on the scale again, and the number was still the same. No holiday water weight had fallen away, no fudge-and-cookies weight had budged, and no more were my positive feelings! I didn’t really lie, but my heart didn’t feel as light, so I thought I better share that with you.
After another week of exercising and trying to eat right, the number still wasn’t budging (darn scale!), and so two nights ago, I started on the Weight-Watchers-I-need-some-discipline train again. Let’s just say the discipline didn’t start right away . . . after joining, I went up to my room and tried not to think about my before-bed bowl of cereal that I always have. It didn’t take me too long to give in and it became more like my Last Meal (delicious ham and veggie hoagie sandwich with oreo ice cream birthday cake on the side). After that, I felt much better (ahhh!) and ready to start the WW plan the next day! It’s been a couple days, and it does feel better to watch it again and mostly to be accountable to myself.
In terms of fitness, I have felt like I needed to step back a bit and do some of the things that I did in the first half of last year. I had been doing the stair climber for the last 6 months, but it really had gotten old and I wasn’t pushing myself as hard as I needed to. At the suggestion of one of our trainers, Matt, I have been doing the upright bike and sweating a lot more. I even got to box today thanks to my husband! It was good to throw some punches again, and I am hoping to incorporate that back into my work-outs like the beginning of last year.
So despite being a little bit down, I have to ask myself-what am I learning? What has changed? What do I need to change? I think I am learning to depend on what I know, to move forward in spite of things not being perfect, to keep things in my work-out that I love, and learning to be okay with needing accountability.
So now you have the truth — hoagie sandwich and all!
